Fighting My Feelings Away

How do you win a fight that was lost from the beginning?

I finally understand every love song I've heard,

And I finally feel every love story I've read.

I've never fought my feelings as hard as I've fought my feelings for you.

From the very beginning I told you to stay away.

Even when I wanted you I pleaded you to move on to someone better.

You never budged and you never left.

I thought it was the chase that made you stay.

Yet you constantly threatened to make me love you.

And I persistently fought to discourage you.

I relentlessly tried to convince us both we aren't meant to be

I looked for excuses to feed you, as well as me, why we couldn't be

But you didn't care nor listened to me

I wanted you so bad, but I told myself it wasn't right.

So I continued to fight those words from my mind.

Because although my heart told me so I believe in mind over matter

Slowly but surely bricks from my wall began to fall off.

Slowly the words you told me would shoot down every sniper thought,

Slowly you invaded my mind and conquered my heart.

Now I see my walls crumbled and I have truly fallen real hard.

Now my mind, body and soul are out of wack.

Every word you speak takes my breathe away.

The thoughts of you turn my skin on fire.

My hearts skips a beat when you confess things to me.

I've never wanted someone as bad as I want you

Yet I can't stop my want to fight it away.