Can't Talk To Anyone

Can't talk to anyone.
I feel so locked up.
Lost my real smile,
Now I muster up a replica.
My eyes scream misery.
The lacrimation is pleading to be let out.
I can't speak to anyone.
I can't express myself.
I feel like I've become weak.
I hate myself for being weak.
Why is everything I believe being put to test?
I can't speak to anyone.
I don't want to hear the "I told you so".
I don't want to know that I was wrong.
I just want it to go back to normal.
Is my love for you so detrimental to us?
I'm afraid to speak to you.
I'm afraid to lose you.
I want to walk away from you.
But as those thoughts rise up,
My pull to you only gets stronger.
Can't talk to anyone.
No one will understand.
No one will know the right answer to this.
Lost my real smile.
I feel so locked up.
Can't talk to anyone.