Looking back today… thinking about certain moments… I still
kind of can’t believe it didn’t happen between us. I miss you. Not enough to
want you back, but enough for it to still sting. I guess all the things that
won me over, all the moments engraved in my mind that meant so much to me didn’t
really mean as much to you. The reality of that hurts. Don’t know if that meant
that your expectations were higher, or if it simply didn’t matter to you, but I
can’t believe you didn’t feel as excited, happy, smitten, and euphoric as I did.
But thank you for those moments. They say its better to have loved and lost,
than to never love at all, and I understand it now. Even if the moments were
short lived, I’m glad I was able to live them period. As India Arie said in a
song once “Cause
there's a blessing in every lesson. And I'm glad that I knew him at all.” At
least they are nice memories to look back to, a footnote in my life story. But
now I strive for more moments like those… with even deeper feelings, reciprocated
and at the right time for them to last forever. Thank you for the previews… now
I’m waiting on my movie. =D
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