Bored Survery

Names
What is your name?: Sarai
Are you named after anyone?: Abraham's wife in the Bible
What's your screename?: drzmorenachula
Would you name a child of yours after you?: Hmmm... probably not.
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: Wilfrido
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: VeronicaAre there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: Yep, Sari, or Sara.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: HELL NO! I love being a Cordero!

Basics
Your gender:: Female.
Straight/Gay/Bi:: Straight.
Single?: Yep.
If not, do you want to be?: No, it was a yes.
Birthdate:: November 22nd.
Your age:: 23
Age you act:: 21.
Age you wish you were:: 21
Your height:: 5'7
Eye color:: Dark Brown.
Happy with it?: Wish they were a lil lighter.
Hair color:: Black
Happy with it?: Yes.
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: Righty
Your living arrangement:: Home with the parental units.
Your family: Mom, Pops, lil bro Firito, and lil sis AnabelHave any pets?: My pup Rocky
Whats your job?: Front desk.
Piercings?: Ears.
Tattoos?: None
Obsessions?: Music, reading, poetry, writing,
Addictions?: Music
Do you speak another language?: Spanish.
Have a favorite quote?: Surround yourself with Successful ppl and you will be successful yourself
Do you have a webpage?: Yes.

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: Hmmm... lol
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: Yeah
Do you have any secrets?: Yes.
Do you hate yourself?: No
Do you like your handwriting?: Kind of.
Do you have any bad habits?: Yes -_-
What is the compliment you get from most people?: I have a nice smile.
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: The Predictable life of Sarai
What's your biggest fear?: Being alone.
Can you sing?: Yes.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: Nope.
Are you a loner?: No, but I act like one.
What are your #1 priorities in life?: Finding happiness
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Yep!
Are you a daredevil?: Not really.
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: My weight.
Are you passive or agressive?: passive
Do you have a journal?: Kind of.
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: *shrug*
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: Weight.
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: Lol In a way.
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: Yeah.
Do you think life has been good so far?: Yes.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: Don't trust anyone!
What do you like the most about your body?: My smile.
And least?: Weight & Stomach
Do you think you are good looking?: Ehh... I have potential
Are you confident?: Lol... A lil.
What is the fictional character you are most like?: Lol
Are you perceived wrongly?: I can be.

Do You...
Smoke?: Ewww... No!
Do drugs?: Not maliciously.
Read the newspaper?: Not really.
Pray?: Yes.
Go to church?: Yes.
Talk to strangers who IM you?: Nope!
Sleep with stuffed animals?: Pooh.
Take walks in the rain?: If I have time yes.
Talk to people even though you hate them?: Yes, you have to be cordial.
Drive?: Yes.
Like to drive fast?: Yes.
Would or Have You Ever? Liked your voice?: No! I sound like a dude! =(
Hurt yourself?: Yep.
Been out of the country?: Yes..
Eaten something that made other people sick?: I don't think so.
Been in love?: Idk.
Done drugs?: Not illegal ones.
Gone skinny dipping?: Kind of. LOL
Had a medical emergency?: No
Had surgery?: Yes
Ran away from home?: Tried it millions of time.
Played strip poker?: No.
Gotten beaten up?: By my mother.
Beaten someone up?: Guilty
Been picked on?: Yes.
Been on stage?: Yes..
Slept outdoors?: In my car, does that count?
Thought about suicide?: Went through a real emo face in my adolocense, and dique tried.
Pulled an all nighter?: Yep.
If yes, what is your record?: Idk.
Gone one day without food?: Yes.
Talked on the phone all night?: Yes... miss those days. =(
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: Haven't slept
Slept all day?: Yes.
Killed someone?: No.
Made out with a stranger?: No.
Had sex with a stranger?: Nope.
Thought you're going crazy?: Yep!
Kissed the same sex?: No.
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: NO.
Been betrayed?: Yes.
Had a dream that came true?: No
Broken the law?: Yes.
Met a famous person?: Yes.
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: No.
On purpose?: I despise roaches!.
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: No.
Stolen anything?: Yep
Been on radio/tv?: Yes.
Been in a mosh-pit?: No.
Had a nervous breakdown?: Yep.
Bungee jumped?: No, I want to though
Had a dream that kept coming back?: Yep.

Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: Yes.
Miracles?: Yep.
Astrology?: Not really.
Magic?: Why not?
God?: Yes.
Satan?: He does exist.
Santa?: No, unfortunately
Ghosts?: Still debating.
Luck?: Yeah...
Love at first sight?: No.
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: Yep.
Witches?: Yes.
Easter bunny?: No. =(
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: Yes.
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: No.
Do you wish on stars?: Sometimes.

Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: Yes.
Do you think God has a gender?: Yes, male.
Do you believe in organized religion?: No
Where do you think we go when we die?: Wherever we are suppose to go.

Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: Yes.
Who is your best friend?: Mar, Milly.
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: My mom, and my bestfriends in a way.
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: Look out the window.
Your favourite inside joke?: =D So many...
Thing you're picked on most about?: My weight.
Who's your longest known friend?: Jeffrey.
Newest?: Gee.
Shyest?: Me.
Funniest?: Tashina.
Sweetest?: None Lol.
Closest?: Mar, Jeffrey, Milly.
Weirdest?: Hmmm... none.
Smartest?: Gee.
Ditziest?: Mar! Kenya 2.0.
Friends you miss being close to the most?: Milly 7 Cathy!
Last person you talked to online?: Gee.
Who do you talk to most online?: Gee.
Who are you on the phone with most?: Mar.
Who do you trust most?: Mar.
Who listens to your problems?: Mar.
Who do you fight most with?: Jeffrey.
Who's the nicest?: Mar.
Who's the most outgoing?: All of them.
Who's the best singer?: Cathy.
Who's on your shit-list?: Omar.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: Some guy friends yes... LOL
Who's your second family?: Tashina & Liz.
Do you always feel understood?: No.
Who's the loudest friend?: Me. Lol
Do you trust others easily?: In a way, but I also measure situations on what they are capable of.
Who's house were you last at?: Mar.
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: My moms.
Do your friends know you?: For the most part yeah.
Friend that lives farthest away:: Milly, Jeffrey, Gee.

Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: No.
What do you find romantic?: Idk.
Turn-on?: Personality, loyalty, big buff body.
Turn-off?: Lying, no sense of humor.
First kiss?: 2nd grade boyfriend names Stephen.
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: I would be upfront with them and tell them I'm not interested, and let them decide what they want to do.
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going out: Yes
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: Yeah...
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: Yes.
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: *shrug*
What is best about the opposite sex?: Thier sex. Lol
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: Thier sex! Lol
What's the last present someone gave you?: I don't remember to many.
Are you in love?: No.
Do you consider your significant other hot?: The man I got something for, yes he is very hot!
Who Was the Last Person... That haunted you?: No one...
You wanted to kill?: Managers
That you laughed at?: Myself.
That laughed at you?: Me.
That turned you on?: Gee. ;D
You went shopping with?: Sisters!
That broke your heart?: Omar.
To disappoint you?: Omar.
To ask you out?: Someone.
To make you cry?: This show I was watching.
To brighten up your day?: Gee.
That you thought about?: ^^^.
You saw a movie with?: Sisters.
You talked to on the phone?: Mar.
You talked to through IM?: Gee.
You saw?: Sister.
You lost?: Grandpa.

Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: No, working.
Where is your significant other?: No tengo.
What are you wearing right now?: Work clothes.
Body part you're touching right now: None, I'm typing.
What are you worried about right now?: My cellphone that I left at home. =(
What book are you reading?: She's Come Undone. I think...
What's on your mousepad?: Don't have one.
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: Bored, Blah, Tired, Unamused, Bored.
Are you bored?: YES.
Are you tired?: DUH.
Are you talking to anyone online?: No.
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: No.
Are you lonely or content?: Lonely.
Are you listening to music?: Yes. Always...

Questions....

Do you have kids?

Are you married?

Do you have a boyfriend?

WHY NOT!?!

NO, NO, NO, AND I DON'T FREAKING KNOW -__-

I am constantly asked these questions. Men and women, they all ask me this question. I answer them politely and with a smile. And with that last question which burns me the most, I just lightly laugh as if its all just a joke. They all seem so surprised as if someone like me should be married with kids. In a way I can see why they would think that, since most of the young women in my generation either got pregnant early on, or because I look much older they probably assume I'm in my late 20's and it should be a time for me to be married. But yesterday was big for me, because after I answered those question and they asked my age, 23, they told me "Well, its about time..." when usually I am told "Aww, you're so young. You still got time". But this new response... yeah, I laughed real hard at that one. Like I don't already know this. Like I don't feel the pressure. Like I don't have everyone in my church praying for me to find my husband and get married like I'm hopeless. Like my family members don't put enough pressure to have grandkids and great grandkids. Like I don't see my mom looking at me as if she secretly knows that I will be lonely forever. Like I don't know that out of my 4 aunts, 3 of them are alone, like some family curse. I know this!!

The other day, talking with my sisters, we were discussing this whole phenomenon, and I told them jokingly that if I got to 30 and was still not married I was going to kill myself, because if dating is hard now, imagine how it would be when I'm that age. They both looked at me as if they felt bad for me, and one of them said "Well, there's always Match.com" I laughed so hard! In the inside felt so sad for myself. Like is that what I'll have to result to?

I know a couple of chicks that have these wonderful men wooing them and asking them to get married. That they want to be with them forever, and have children, and a home. That they don't believe in divorce, that to them once you got married you would just have to work through any problem, but that divorce would never be an option. Things I have always wanted to hear. These young ladies, they don't want it, they tell me that they can't see them doing any of that because they have a career to think about first. In that moment I hated them, wanted to slap them silly. I discussed this with my bestfriend who also feels the same way as me, and shes tells me that thats life for you. What you don't want, you get, and what you want, you don't get. Her solution, maybe we should stop wanting it. I wish I could do that, but I wouldn't be fooling anyone, especially not myself. Maybe life, but I doubt life could be fooled. Maybe that is the route I should take. Lie my way through life. Tell people I am happily married, but that lie would just burn just as much as the truth. Funny thing is, I be the moment I give up, life with bring the person to me, and because of my lack of hope, I won't see it, believe it, and might just lose it.

Tell me about it.. :\ Pretty much everyone judges on weight or physical appearances

In reality, all I want is a man to choose to love me unconditionally forever. To see the perfection in my inperfection. Hopefully once he sees that, he will choose to marry me and make another human being from our love. *shrug*

I want that...

Don't look for the hottest guy or the popular jock in class. Look for the guy that makes you feel like you're actually worth a second glace. The one that makes you happy to be the person that you are. The guy who isn't like all the rest, but completely different. Yet, it's why you like him because he isn't like any guy you've ever known ; he's just him. Find the one you can be yourself in front of. You can say anything, you can laugh, you can smile, you can cry, you can scream, you can kiss, you can hug, can fight, make up at the end of the night, and he'd still be crazy about you.

1/11/2011

Here's a survey, because I felt like posting something, and I was, but decided not to do that post yet, so here's this.

1. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank? Brugal & Coke
2. Who was the last person to send you a text message? Firito (My bro)
3. Last time you went swimming in a pool? I don't remember.
4. Are you happy? I'm aight.
5. Where do you live? Miami.
6. Last thing you ate? Cheese stick.
7. Want to kick anyone's butt? Nope.
8. What time is it? 12:36pm on 1/11/11
9. Do you have any expensive jewelry? Yep.
10. AIM or MSN? AIM.
11. How many hours on average do you work a week? 40 hrs.
12. Who do you like right now? Poptart.
13. Do you watch the olympics? I definitely enjoy them
14. Favorite soda? Strawberry or Orange soda.
15. Do you watch saturday morning cartoons? They still have those?
16. Who was the last person to call you? Someone from the building.
17. What's your sign? Scorpio/Sagittarius.
18. Where do you spend most of your money? Bills.
19. Are you an only child or do you have siblings? Siblings.
20. Ever been called a hoe/slut? Yeah, by my sister.
21. Ever been called a bitch? Oh yes.
22. Did you ever collect Beanie Babies? Nope
23. Collect anything? Cards, notes, letters, butterflies items, Pooh bears.
24. Myspace or Facebook? Facebook duh.
25. Do you have T-mobile? Yes.
26. Last time you saw your parents? Lastnight.
27. Ever been to a wedding? Yes.
28. Are you missing anyone at the moment? Yeah.
29. Did you take a nap today? No, I need one though.
30. How many hours of sleep did you get last night? 5 hours.
31. Do you support the troops? In a way yes.
32. Could you handle being in the military? If its my decision yes.
33. Are you hungry or thirsty? Neither.
34. Favorite fast food restaurant? Taco Bell.
35. Do you own a camera phone? Yep.
36. Ever had to take a sobriety test? NO.
37. Last time you went to the gym or worked out? To a gym? LOOONG time ago.
38. Do you have a photo hosting site that you use? No.
39. Last place you were at? Home.
40. What is your current wish? To have my poptart.
41. Do you have any regrets? Yeeeeeep
42. How old are your parents? Mom 50, Dad 58.
43. Do you like Kayla Roser? ???
44. Favorite place to be? Dominican Republic.
45. Do you like Amber Swald? ??????
46. Fav restaurant? Chilis?
47. Ever been to Disney Land/World? Yep
48. How is the weather today? Ehh w/e
49. Do you e-mail? Of course.
50. Last letter/piece of mail you received besides junk or a bill? Netflix
51. Are you dating someone right now? No.
52. Last voicemail you received? Ama stating that shes a US citizen now. Lol
53. Do you drunk dial? I did once.... embarrassing!
54. Stupidest thing you ever did with your cell phone? take pictures I shouldn't have.
55. Do you like Dane Cook? Maybe if I see what he looks like I'll know who he is.
56. Last time you were sick? November
57. Are you lactose intolerant or do you have IBS? No.
58. Ready for the weekend? Always ready.
59. What did you do last night? School.
60. Is it hard to say good bye? Always!

01/05/2011

I'm the kind of girl who kicks the soda machine because it ripped me off. The kind who doesn't like to get noticed. The kind who is afraid of everything in a way. The kind who will hug you as hard as she can. The kind who will talk for hours on the phone when you might not even be there. The kind who doesn't order a salad on a dare. The kind who doesn't really know who she is, but will never forget what she isn't. The kind who has a hard time letting go. The kind who wants to find the one. The kind who listens to the rules and follows them; for the most part. And most importantly, I'm the kind of girl that can be good for you.

She's the self-preserved, pretty-but-doesn't-know-it kind of girl. Reading her books and daydreaming all day while he's the outgoing, spontaneous, good-looking boy with the most amazing eyes you'll ever see. They grew up from two different worlds, and he'll teach her how to stand up to those who look down to her, and she'll teach him how to love and know the true meaning of jealousy, while he teaches her the same without knowing it. He'll teach her how to shout at the world without a wince, because his hand is holding hers tightly, letting her know he will never leave her, causing her to forget her fears for everything, and just be able to live for once without any worries. Atleast that what she imagines....

Either/Or

There are women who are hard to give thier hearts, but easy to give thier vag. Then there are others like me, who are easy to give thier heart, but hard to give the vag. I began to analyze this. Those who give thier vags easily seem to have more men after them since men are so sexually oriented. While us who hold back on that but are ready to give our hearts, men seem to run away. Why is that? Maybe because men are afraid to take something as valuable as your heart. But aren't they both valuable in their own way. I wish I wasn't so easy to love. I wish I was the other way around. At the end of the day, your mileage won't affect you, like the scars on your heart do.

All she wants is a boy who will call her at 4am, because he couldn't sleep; hold her hand for no reason at all, wrap his arms around her and hold her tight; treat her like she's the most important thing in the world; but mostly she just wants to know someone cares.